On my mind...

I entered the year exhausted...

Unlike every other year, I wasn’t super enthusiastic about the new year. I mean, I was grateful for life and all that good stuff, but I wasn’t hopping around at the thought of it, you know? I just felt really tired, and honestly, a bit over it too (over a year wey never even start? lmfao).

Last year, for the first time in my life, it felt like I was running nonstop at full speed, every single day, until the year ran out. And I lowkey felt like I didn’t have much to show for how exhausted I was.

I was truly tired.

Now you’re probably wondering what even happened last year. Oh, I’ll tell you, alright. 😅

It was my first real attempt at adulting. Lmao. Not even full-on, independent adulting (because I still had some help), but adulting nonetheless.

I did my NYSC last year. I was posted to Abuja, which I didn’t mind because I already wanted to move there and just start my life anyway.

You might be thinking, “Oh, that’s it?”
And the answer is: yes o, that’s it.

It was uncharted territory for me. I mean, even in uni, there were breaks. But last year, I felt like I was constantly on the move with very little rest. I was drained.

On top of that, I felt like I should be doing more with my life, but I was also completely unsure what “more” actually meant. Confusion set in. Then self-doubt. And finally, just straight-up mental exhaustion from thinking about it all the time.

By the end of 2025, I was simply too tired to be excited about a new year. Few days before cross-over service, I lazily and reluctantly wrote out some goals and prayer requests — not because I stopped believing in God or prayers or anything like that, but because I was just in a zone, you know?

As tired and confused as I was, the only certainty I had was that God still listened to me. I didn’t feel like it, but I knew it for a fact. Does that make sense?

One person in the Bible whose relationship with God continues to amaze me is David. I love how vocal he was in the book of Psalms.

Whenever David was happy, he told God.
Whenever he was sad, he made sure God knew.
Whenever he was scared, he mentioned it to God.

And I think I may have borrowed a page from his book, because I’ve realized that I’ve become just as vocal with God too.

I’ve actually forgotten why I started this piece. lmao.
But I guess this was just on my mind.

Wanna tell me how you started this year? Because I’d love to hear it!

Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits

Ps. 103:2 (KJV)